child's play

seriously i should have known. he pretended like he was the big man. he was nothing. poor boy took that whole bottle of pills. fucking devastating. i feel kinda guilty of course, but at the beginning of it all he had that competent drugs user demeanor. it's unfortunate that anyone that beautiful would not be thought of in that manner -- in control, self actualized. it wasn't a suicide it was a fucking rookie mistake.

i am glad i took the label off that bottle!